Me. That's who.
So...I have started working part time.
Mostly from home. Only one day in the office.
Only 15 hours.
And my brain has felt like mush for the past two weeks because of it.
Also-working-outside-the-home-mothers...my respect for you has only increased over the past two weeks.
How do you handle the constant feeling of forgetting something...or letting someone down??
Does this go away?? Ever? Not ever?!?
Last week I had a melt down on the eve of Chloe's Valentine Party.
In my pre-working-part-time world, remembering on Sunday night that I have a party to organize would have freaked me out a little, but I would have been comforted by the knowledge of a sprawling Monday the day before the party. Monday would then be deemed 'party planning/party errand running' day. And all would go my kind of smooth with all kinds of bumps along the way.
So, remembering on Sunday and working in the office all day Monday lead to a tiny melt down. Both Sunday and Monday night. Ok. Monday's may not have been so tiny.
You know how you are mentally aware that things are going to be stressful...so you prepare yourself...give yourself a little 'you can do this' pep talk and resolve to 'hold it together.' And then totally blow it??
Me too. As I was out with the masses on Valentine's Day Eve (seriously...why are you people out in droves?? Since when did Valentine's Day become Christmas???) I maneuvered the crowds, thought I misplaced my phone across town, drove back across town and returned home to find my phone sitting by my computer (only after I had cursed and judged the people at the previous store who would
'clearly steal my phone if given the opportunity', and finally bought the candy hearts that I had meant to buy at 3+ stores over the past 3 days. Once home, I assembled C's Valentine bags, did a couple hours of work and then collapsed in bed.
The rest of the week was pretty touch and go.
This week has been better, but my brain is still adjusting to the new level of activity. I am thankful for the work...so trying to keep my head and heart there even in the adjusting.
All of that to say...lacking in Pintentionality this week.
But Chloe and I did this back at Christmas time for her gift to her classmates. :)
Hope your Winter Break is REFRESHING! Love, Chloe